Just Me

Seriously, with all the running I’ve done lately, and probably walking too, I can see some changes in my legs. My calves are starting to look KILLER! Goal: run 5 miles straight by Christmas. I’m at 3 right now

I started out a few weeks ago running 3 miles and doing a very fast walk on the treadmill 30 min on a 15.0 incline. I’ve slowly been increasing the time on my walks to 40-45 min. Today I ran 3 miles,did a whole hour of the fast walking, then ran another mile to see if I could (I wanna get up to 5 miles of running a day, when I do, I def won’t walk as much). By the middle of the last mile of running, it hurt a little but I thought I’d push through bc cardio hasn’t made me sore in a while. Was that too much? How do you define “too much cardio”?

I think I’m supposed to observe a scheduled C-section.. might be cool. Then afterwards, hitting the gym for some running/walking cardio! 

An apple and a few teddy Graham’s with pb. I let myself because I killed it at the gym today and if I’m hungry… I’m gonna eat! I didn’t overdo it, just a little snack.

Another thing… I’ve decided not to weigh myself until the 11th. Here’s why: I would have this week but I just got back from thanksgiving break and eating OK but not the best, AND it’s shark week. I didn’t wanna get discouraged. This weekend I’m celebrating my friends 21st bday all weekend and I will kick my ass At the gym everyday this week and even on Friday, but my Fridays workout will be negated by eating out and alcohol.. I might eat dinner before going down and limit my drinks. Saturday will be an all cheat day though, I already know itll be bad news. So can’t weigh myself after that! I usually weigh in on Mondays, but I have a final on the 12th so I’ll just weigh the day before.. If I weighed on test day, it might put me in a sad mood and I’ll mess my exam up.

On a final note… I’ve been appreciating my body a little more, starting to like what I’m seeing and that’s the ultimate motivation :) PLUS I’m starting to outsmart my low blood sugars! Losing weight plan is back in action :)

As much as I like clinicals, I’m glad they’re over after Weds. Means I’ll actually get a good amount of sleep for at least 2 days next week. :)

And I’m rebelling! None for me :) Doing good this week. BOOM.

I absolutely LOVED spending so much time with my family. I never see them enough. My life is SO busy lately.. I just wanna get my RN and be done, then I’ll have 4 days off and I’ll be able to see them more, hopefully! 

Over break, I worked 2x, which isn’t the BEST, but one was a killer cardio workout. The only day I really overdid it with eating was Thanksgiving, which I’m ok with! You can’t deprive yourself of too much, one day is okay. Even a few days, as long as you get back on track! 

Heading back to school tonight after dinner. I have to be at class tomorrow at 8 for a computerized nursing Kaplan test for Peds and OB. I’ve been glancing over my notes all break, so I hope I’m ready! I just completed all my Peds notes today, there were SO many! But now I’m working on OB. I just hope I can get through them all.. there are so many it’s difficult to really study in depth with them for lack of time. So I’ll be more ready for finals week now that I know this! 

Anyways, I hope everyone’s doing fantastic! Please don’t beat yourselves up too much over the holiday, Christmas and New Years, too. Live a little, you work hard, you deserve it. :)

So I didn’t get that extra run in with my friend, but it’s ok! I ate very healthily today and burnt off so much at the gym earlier. I snuck a few pieces of candy in though, and DID have a small piece of cake with a little scoop of ice cream at my friend’s house on her birthday, I might have gone a few hundred over, but not much and I burnt it off anyway. :) I also looked in the mirror and wasn’t too disappointed in what I saw, so that’s a plus! Esp. with how I’ve been doing lately. Haha

Hit the gym with Dad.. we both had a killer workout. He walked fast on the treadmill and lifted and I ran 3 miles and walked on a high incline.. All in all, I burnt 800 calories. Just had soup for lunch! Healthy healthy day. And in a few hours, I’m heading to the park for another run. I wasn’t going to, I’m pretty tired, and I worked HARD at the gym. My main reason for not wanting to go was I didn’t wanna hold her back. I don’t know how slow I’m gonna go or how far I’ll make it. However, she reassured me that she hasn’t run in over a month and she felt the same way. I told her we should shoot for 3, but definitely do 2. So in about an hour, it’s on! Hopefully it’ll put me up to 5 miles today, but I’ll post after to let ya know how it goes. :)

One of my favorite parts about coming home, working out with Dad. He’s into fitness and likes to work out, but can be inconsistent with it. Who can blame him? He works 60+ hours a week! I work 40 during the summer and it was still hard for me to find time, and when I DID have time, I’m too exhausted. But I think we’re good at motivating each other when I come home to work out. We go to the gym and even though we don’t work out TOGETHER (we’re doing different things), we are still there together and that’s ok. I just hope I can get a treadmill today, I need to burn off the calories from last night and 3 nights ago! Eek! 

I hope everyone had a fantastic Thanksgiving! I did. I didn’t get the chance to work out today, but yesterday’s workout was fantastic, so oh well.. but today, I went over to visit relatives from out of state. We all hung out, ate (LOTS), played games, and caught up. It was so good to see everyone and knowing I get to see all my cousins and aunts again in 3 weeks makes me so happy! Every year we get together as a family to celebrate Christmas together. Another day of pitch in food, games, and being together. Anyways.. I’m planning on hitting the gym hard all week, eating light, and in general staying healthy. I have to make up for today, plus, next week we’re going out ALL WEEKEND for my friend’s bday (it’s her 21st so it’ll be big). I know I’m not gonna be healthy at all that weekend, so I’m gonna be really good until then. :) Happy Thanksgiving guys!

I hope I make it! Question.. Do any of you guys ever work nights? How does that affect your eating schedule? I don’t wanna eat more calories, but I feel like, tomorrow I’ll be sleeping through breakfast, so I don’t feel too bad about snacking a little. Packing teddy grahams and pretzel sticks! Ahh! Wish me luck. :P

I’m sorry to put everyone through this, but I just need to rant. With my insulin pump, I’ve been able to  live a fairly normal life.. I usually almost forget I even have diabetes until I have to push a button for insulin or check my blood sugar. Lately, I’ve been battling crazy blood sugars. I don’t know how much this means to any of you, but I upload my insulin pump into the computer weekly so my doctor can see my blood sugars and how much insulin (the hormone that LOWERS blood sugars) I’m giving myself with meals and to correct blood sugars. I guess that’s a good backround..

I’m a nursing student, taking 3-4 hour long classes at a time, doing 8-12 hour clinical shifts, and working 8-12 hour shifts on my hospital unit. I’m also trying my hardest to work out and lose weight. Lately, my blood sugars have been dropping a ton with class, during work, and when I work out. I’ve lowered my insulin levels during my workouts so I can get through them, but after I workout, for hours, the exercise has a lowering effect on my blood sugar, causing me to consume more sugar to raise it to a normal level, then eat a snack to keep it from dropping again. Basically when I work out, I eat back all the calories I burnt off because my blood sugars are lower for a day after I run or exercise. It’s frustrating because I feel like, why even work out if I’m just going to have to eat back everything and more that I burnt off at the gym? With class, I can deal with it, because it’s only a few hours, and I am not too bummed about having to eat a granola bar through it to get me through the day, although I’d rather only eat when I want to, not when my diabetes wants me to. Thirdly, with work. Ok, I did a 12 hour shift on Friday. My blood sugar was low at 10, so I ate glucose tabs (sugar to raise my blood sugar up), then a Kashi granola bar.. healthy enough.. Then at lunch, my blood sugar was low again, so I ate lunch and grabbed a candy bar (it was a bad day at work, and my sugar was low again, so I treated myself to M & Ms). 3-4ish, AGAIN my blood sugar was low.. ate more glucose tabs, another granola bar. 6pm, again (and by this point, I had a splitting headache from it being so low all day). I ate PB crackers. At this point, I’m not even counting calories, because I’m sure I ate all my day’s worth and I hadn’t even eaten dinner yet. I was starving. Basically my point with work is.. I always overeat because I have to. 

I’m just so upset and frustrated. I am sitting at a solid 140 pounds. I eat SO healthy. I RARELY eat out.. last Thursday was the first time in probably a month. I work out, and hard. Yet I can’t seem to lose, and lately it’s because of my diabetes. My doc is trying to set my insulin settings on my pump, but with my crazy lifestyle lately, it’s difficult, because when I’m doing all these things, my blood sugars run low, but if I happen to not work out or go to work, they go high. I’m sorry, if I’m gonna weigh 140 pounds, I at least want to enjoy it. I wanna eat out or eat more or not work out as hard, because in my mind.. I should weigh 130 at least. One of my friends never works out, eats out every other day and weighs 10 pounds more than me… that’s it! I should be losing weight.. I count calories and don’t even have junk food in my apartment. I eat nothing but healthy foods, yet with my diabetes, I can’t lose anything. I only gain. It’s so.. defeating.

If you’ve actually read through all of this, I apologize for putting you through it.. I just needed to rant, to talk about it, because lately I’ve been really upset/sad about it. I’ve worked hard and have gotten nowhere because of my diabetes.. I just needed to talk. 

I might do some ab work at home tonight, but I could feel my blood sugar dropping after 2 miles of running, so I decided to squeeze in 1 more mile of running, then call it a day. .I DID get through 43 min of walking uphill on the treadmill, which TOLD me that I burnt 500 calories (it felt awesome to see that, but how accurate is that? Doesn’t feel like I’m burning that many..). So that was my workout. Lately on myfitnesspal, I’ve only logged in my running, every once in a while I’ll log a lifting session in, but I’ve stopped putting in my “500 calorie” walks, just because I can’t be sure how much I’m actually burning, so I just don’t count it. I’m doing good so far today, I’ve had a yogurt and PB toast for breakfast, then soup and pretzels for lunch. I’m taking my little sister out for dinner tonight, but Mexican is OUT (thank GOD), because she had that for lunch already. I always overdo it at the Mexican restaurant at home, I swear! So I’m pushing for a healthy day and gonna keep it as light as I can until Thanksgiving, which will be my ultimate cheat day! Hah. I’m also trying to set a weight goal for over the holidays.. I’m not sure how much I wanna lose, but right now, I’m thinking I wanna lose 5 pounds by NYE or at least maintain my weight, since it will be difficult to lose much with all the festivities going on.. 

P.S. I wrote this a few hours ago.. just didn’t push send I guess! We ended up going to Subway, I got a veggie delite, but then went to Wendy’s and I splurged on a Medium frosty. I fit it in though, and since I ran, I still have room for another snack before bed!

I dropped .2 lbs.. whoo!! lol! But forreal, after 2 cheat days and only going to the gym 3x this week, I guess I’ll take it. I’m gonna be really good this week up until Thanksgiving, and I’m gonna make that day my cheat day. I’m gonna try my best to not be guilty and at the same time, eat until I’m full. My plan for the day is… my gym opens up in 1.5 hours, I’m gonna try to do at least 3 miles, and maybe some ab stuff. I’m going home tonight with my roommate and taking my  little sister out to dinner (I hope we go to Subway! lol). But I’m trying to figure out my day eating wise until then.. So far, I had a yogurt. I’m thinking of having a piece of PB toast before my workout, then after, maybe some soup with something else, like crackers or pretzels.. I dunno, we’ll see I guess!