Today was a good day calorie-wise, but not so hot on the food choices. I ended up eating a total of around 1300 calories, ( I might eat something small later..) and I ran a mile today. BUT I started my day gorging myself on chips. Bad bad bad. I DID however come back to the apartment and eat a 400 calorie pasta dinner I made, instead of splitting a frozen pizza with my roommates (who each ate about 900 calories from just that.. eek!) Tomorrow will be better.. I just lose my self control when I go home and visit family. I do so much better on my own. And it helps that I don’t buy all that crap food. I just usually have a box of cheez its or one or two types of “bad” snacks.. The rest is healthy and normally, I don’t even eat the snack things I buy, I eat fruit or toast instead! Hopefully I do well the rest of the week, and I am planning on making my own lunch and dinner Friday so this weekend when I’m outta town with friends, my “cheat day” can be Saturday, and that’s it, leading me to a good weigh in number Monday. :)

It’s my birthday Sunday and Dad’s birthday today. Grandma brought over her homemade chili… I’m addicted to her chili spaghetti. With cheese on top. It’s bad, I ate a HUGE plate full. Now I’m eating a small piece of Dad’s birthday cake and Mom’s making me a carrot cake for my birthday. But I’m not holding back for my birthday. I already feel a little bad for overdoing it tonight with no workout. But I can’t be too hard on myself. I’m turning 22, I’m going to enjoy myself this weekend. I’ll get more serious next week, then seriously buckling down the week after, when I move out of my house. I’m not gonna mess around this year at school. Cutting back drinking and gonna keep up the healthy eating. I’m turning myself around. Not gonna stress about my weight for a few weeks, then it’s getting serious.

It was one of those nights where my parents left money home for us so we could go out to eat if we wanted to. My sister was going out with her friends and going to a sleepover. My brother was going to the movies with one of his friends, then to Bdubs after. So that leaves me at home. I could’ve made something, but nothing looked good. I thought about going to Subway again, but I’ve been there more times than I can count on both hands in the past month, since I’ve been home. So that didn’t sound good either. I thought about grabbing something at Taco Bell, but wasn’t sure about that, so decided on ordering a pizza—medium pepperoni. I had 3 slices, felt so full I almost felt sick :/. A few hours later and I’m snacking on chocolate. I had probably 5 of those little chocolate eggs. I feel not very good right now. I ate horribly the past 4 hours… what a crappy cheat day! It wasn’t even that good, nothing was good, but I ate like crap anyway! Ughh. So I guess that’s that for this week. Until next week. My next cheat day is gonna be so much more worth it. Ugh.

So I went to Cincinnati over the weekend, because my sister was playing in a volleyball tourney at UC. Friday night, I didn’t do TOO bad with my diet, we went to this German restaurant and other than that, not too bad. My meal was pretty healthy:rice, grilled chicken and steamed veggies with no oil/butter. Then mom and I split a dessert.. coulda been worse. Yesterday, I had a decently healthy breakfast, but we ate lunch at PF Changs with my grandparents. Of COURSE I ate too much. Didn’t really have dinner, but got an ice cream from cold stone.. disaster! But the only topping I put on it was graham cracker. Then we went to Skyline, and if you know me.. I LOVE Skyline/Gold Star Chili. I only got a tortilla wrapped with chili and cheese. I coulda been way worse. But I was so bloated by the end of the day, it was awful! Today I ate a somewhat larger breakfast because I was so hungry before lunch yesterday that I wanted to be able to be ok until lunch. Then for lunch, my sister and I went to Gold Star (gotta get that Cinci chili fix before going home!!). It was delish. I came home and had a handful of cheese-itz, then a little popcorn. So basically my cheat day of the week turned into a cheat weekend. I’ll probably end up eating dinner tonight too, but oh well. And to make matters worse? It’s about to be Shark Week. Good thing I weighed in on Friday? So I might hold off on weighing myself this week and wait til next Monday. I’m planning on doing better if I can this week. Last day of diet coke! I’m enjoying one right now :) haha.

Tomorrow I have orientation for my intern job at the hospital.. gotta get up and be on the road by 6am, to be SURE I make it there at 8am. I’m thinking of eating a pb sandwich for breakfast, making it then taking it with me.. long days get me so hungry and I don’t want my blood sugar to drop before lunch! I don’t know if i’ll pack a lunch or not. Haven’t decided, but I’m gonna try to eat healthier if I don’t pack one. Anyway, wish me luck on this intern job! I’m hoping I can get 12 hour shifts and work weekends sometimes.. that’d be FANTASTIC haha. Enjoy the rest of the weekend! :)

and only lost .6 of a pound. I worked hard this week, but I guess I could have worked a little harder. And I had a serious cheat day when I went to Don Pablo’s with the girls and we all ordered HUGE dinners and HUGE margaritas. This week, even if I don’t make it to the gym (because I have so many exams!) I’ll work on running more. And eating better. I’m making my cheat day tomorrow, because my friend is throwing a toga party and we’re getting pizza before. I might just not drink. Eh.. idk we’ll see. As soon as I get down below my pre-spring break weight, I’ll start posting how much I weigh again. Hopefully, that’ll be next week!