I went to the gym this morning and walked 5 miles on a 15 incline at 4.0. The treadmill SAID I burnt 1000 calories. I put it into myfitnesspal but I just don’t know how accurate that is! But tonight I pushed past 3 miles and went 4! So according to all that, I burnt 1400 or so calories today. I only ate a little over 900 today so far, so now, I’m eating, eating, eating! Right now, a piece of baked chicken and a berry smoothie with skim milk. It’s gonna be a long night of studying, so I think I’m gonna work on a study guide for nursing management, pop in a movie (I’m thinking Maid of Honor :] ) and eventually make a cheese quesadilla. By then, I’ll be at 1750 calories and 94 grams of protein. Beast!! 

It’s 1 pm, I got up at 9, ate breakfast, lounged for a bit, then 10:45 hit the gym. Ran 3 miles then did 45 min of walking on a high incline. I’m eating some soup now for lunch, later I plan to eat 2 chicken breasts with rice for dinner. I really need to get more protein in my diet. I’d like to try some protein powders, but usually when I do, I don’t like them.. haven’t found the right one yet I guess.. 

Anyways.. Soup, then shower, then kicking myself into beast study mode for the rest of the day. Gotta do well on my Peds/OB exam Monday.. Eek! I feel bad though, my dad really wanted me to come home tonight to help with his work party at our house, but I need all the time I can get to study for this exam, so I had to turn him down :( He’ll be fine, my whole family will be helping out, but I know he really wanted me to be there. Oh well. Gotta get through Thursday, then home for a bit at last!

I’m lacking protein in my diet. I wanna up my intake by 20-30 grams and a protein powder would be an easy way to do it (I already eat an extra piece of meat at dinner..). Problem is.. I can’t find any protein powders that I can actually drink, because they normally taste *awful* to me. I also don’t like milk, so I need some ideas of other things to mix it with. Anyone know of any good brands? I would keep experimenting, but they’re soo expensive. Any help is appreciated! Thanks. :)

Hit the gym with Dad.. we both had a killer workout. He walked fast on the treadmill and lifted and I ran 3 miles and walked on a high incline.. All in all, I burnt 800 calories. Just had soup for lunch! Healthy healthy day. And in a few hours, I’m heading to the park for another run. I wasn’t going to, I’m pretty tired, and I worked HARD at the gym. My main reason for not wanting to go was I didn’t wanna hold her back. I don’t know how slow I’m gonna go or how far I’ll make it. However, she reassured me that she hasn’t run in over a month and she felt the same way. I told her we should shoot for 3, but definitely do 2. So in about an hour, it’s on! Hopefully it’ll put me up to 5 miles today, but I’ll post after to let ya know how it goes. :)

I hope I make it! Question.. Do any of you guys ever work nights? How does that affect your eating schedule? I don’t wanna eat more calories, but I feel like, tomorrow I’ll be sleeping through breakfast, so I don’t feel too bad about snacking a little. Packing teddy grahams and pretzel sticks! Ahh! Wish me luck. :P

I’m sorry to put everyone through this, but I just need to rant. With my insulin pump, I’ve been able to  live a fairly normal life.. I usually almost forget I even have diabetes until I have to push a button for insulin or check my blood sugar. Lately, I’ve been battling crazy blood sugars. I don’t know how much this means to any of you, but I upload my insulin pump into the computer weekly so my doctor can see my blood sugars and how much insulin (the hormone that LOWERS blood sugars) I’m giving myself with meals and to correct blood sugars. I guess that’s a good backround..

I’m a nursing student, taking 3-4 hour long classes at a time, doing 8-12 hour clinical shifts, and working 8-12 hour shifts on my hospital unit. I’m also trying my hardest to work out and lose weight. Lately, my blood sugars have been dropping a ton with class, during work, and when I work out. I’ve lowered my insulin levels during my workouts so I can get through them, but after I workout, for hours, the exercise has a lowering effect on my blood sugar, causing me to consume more sugar to raise it to a normal level, then eat a snack to keep it from dropping again. Basically when I work out, I eat back all the calories I burnt off because my blood sugars are lower for a day after I run or exercise. It’s frustrating because I feel like, why even work out if I’m just going to have to eat back everything and more that I burnt off at the gym? With class, I can deal with it, because it’s only a few hours, and I am not too bummed about having to eat a granola bar through it to get me through the day, although I’d rather only eat when I want to, not when my diabetes wants me to. Thirdly, with work. Ok, I did a 12 hour shift on Friday. My blood sugar was low at 10, so I ate glucose tabs (sugar to raise my blood sugar up), then a Kashi granola bar.. healthy enough.. Then at lunch, my blood sugar was low again, so I ate lunch and grabbed a candy bar (it was a bad day at work, and my sugar was low again, so I treated myself to M & Ms). 3-4ish, AGAIN my blood sugar was low.. ate more glucose tabs, another granola bar. 6pm, again (and by this point, I had a splitting headache from it being so low all day). I ate PB crackers. At this point, I’m not even counting calories, because I’m sure I ate all my day’s worth and I hadn’t even eaten dinner yet. I was starving. Basically my point with work is.. I always overeat because I have to. 

I’m just so upset and frustrated. I am sitting at a solid 140 pounds. I eat SO healthy. I RARELY eat out.. last Thursday was the first time in probably a month. I work out, and hard. Yet I can’t seem to lose, and lately it’s because of my diabetes. My doc is trying to set my insulin settings on my pump, but with my crazy lifestyle lately, it’s difficult, because when I’m doing all these things, my blood sugars run low, but if I happen to not work out or go to work, they go high. I’m sorry, if I’m gonna weigh 140 pounds, I at least want to enjoy it. I wanna eat out or eat more or not work out as hard, because in my mind.. I should weigh 130 at least. One of my friends never works out, eats out every other day and weighs 10 pounds more than me… that’s it! I should be losing weight.. I count calories and don’t even have junk food in my apartment. I eat nothing but healthy foods, yet with my diabetes, I can’t lose anything. I only gain. It’s so.. defeating.

If you’ve actually read through all of this, I apologize for putting you through it.. I just needed to rant, to talk about it, because lately I’ve been really upset/sad about it. I’ve worked hard and have gotten nowhere because of my diabetes.. I just needed to talk. 

Don’t even know how this is possible! I ate really well, 1200-1500 calories a day, no cheat day, worked out and went all out at the gym 5 days, and then gained a pound today weighing in. Ughhh. I’m reeeeeeally hoping it’s water weight. It can’t be that I’m eating too much, right? Is it because I’m doing too much at the gym? Ughhh damper on my day. But I’m still gonna fight this and keep going. I have a goal in mind and I’m gonna get there. I just need to figure out how! 

Side note… I’m gonna start drinking a TON of water.. that way this week my body will flush out all the extra sodium I might be holding onto.. We’ll see if that yields any results.

I am ON it this week. Another fantastic workout! And tonight.. I’m not gonna screw up. I’ll eat a snack before I go to bed without giving myself insulin. That way, I don’t over eat from a low blood sugar. I’m figuring things out. It’s gonna be good. :)

Back on track.. it’s official. I ran 3 miles again, 9 minute pace, then lifted biceps and back a half hour, then waked 45 minutes on the highest incline, 3.5 mph. I love doing all that at the gym, because I can eat whenever I’m hungry and although I don’t overdo it by any means.. I can really tell I’m using all the food I eat for energy. It’s a great feeling! And I did allow myself one piece of halloween candy.. a starburst haha. I didn’t have anything huge, a girl in my class offered it because she doesn’t like the red kind and ! those are my favorite, so I accepted. :) I made whole wheat pasta for dinner tonight with meat sauce and I think I’ll have leftovers for at least 2 days, so that’s on my schedule haha (I know, I’m weird.. I can eat the same things over and over for days without them getting old.. especially if it’s healthy). Anyways, I hope everyone has had a healthy and safe Halloween!